I just had lunch with a co-worker that I usually would not have lunch with, but since our office cafe is closed for the the week, we both needed to go out to eat. And we just so happened to go to a vegan place called Clover. http://www.cloverfoodlab.com/ We chatted for a bit over the stresses in the office lately and then I felt compelled to mention Reiki and that maybe I should offer Reiki to my fellow co-workers. As we talked about that, he mentioned diet. He has this sister-in-law that was just interviewed because of her work. Great interview, which was conducted on my birthday!
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/ilumine-ao/2013/12/17/al-diaz-dr-rhea-mehta-self-healing-through-body-love
As soon as I started to listen, she mentioned vibrations. Bam! The connections are getting simply amazing.
Okay, as a side note. Another co-worker just walked over to my desk. I just did a five minute Reiki session on his shoulders. This is so cool. I got the courage to mention to one co-worker that I can practice Reiki and then shazam, I have my first Reiki recipient/volunteer. (And it wasn't the same co-worker. And they didn't talk to one another before he came over to my desk.)
I am so excited.
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
A History of How This All Started
Who am I?
-Hello, my name is Monica. I'm a forty-something, full-time working, mother of two young girls and wife.
What is this blog about?
-As I mentioned, I have started on a path of discovery in the metaphysical realm. I hope to share my experiences, stories and thoughts as they pertain to this journey.
What brought me to this?
-In the Spring of 2013, I discovered I was pregnant. Soon after, I miscarried. And then shortly after that, I was pregnant once again. Only to miscarry again. Both of these miscarriages were stressful, painful and left me grieving in a way I never experienced before. I thought I had enough life experience to handle this trauma, but as it turned out, I didn't.
I suffered internally, externally, in my place of work and at home. My marriage was strained and my two young children didn't know why their mother was not herself. When I finally acknowledged that I needed help, I decided to see a therapist, someone who could help me deal with my loss and suffering. It was a relief to learn that I was handling my sorrow with strength and wisdom, but I was still struggling with the sadness.
Then I got an email from a friend. She wanted me to visit her in Tampa, FL. So I booked a flight in October. The morning I got into my car to drive to the airport, I could feel that something was different. Something unexpected and energizing was going to happen. My drive into Boston was quick and easy for a Friday morning. I was able to find a parking space directly next to the terminal. (I mean, you physically could not park any closer, period.) After I breezed through security and found my way to the gate, I noticed that there was a direct flight to Tampa nearly ready to depart. I walked up to the ticket agent and asked if I could get on that flight. Sure enough, there were three seats left. He changed my ticket and I headed to the other gate. By taking this earlier flight, I was going to land in Tampa four hours ahead of schedule. I called my girlfriend to let her know, but I only got her voice mail. Regardless, I still boarded the plane and hoped that she would get my message and be able to pick me up from the airport. When I had landed and was able to turn my phone back on, I saw I had a message. My friend was thrilled that I made an earlier flight and she'd pick me up straight away.
The next few days were fun and relaxing. Although I'd never been away from my children, I was calm and happy. Seeing my friend and enjoying the warmth of Florida was a recharge to my soul. I was enjoying my mini-vacation/get-a-way. My girlfriend's parents also live in the area and have a house right on the beach. My friend and I stayed there Sunday night and Monday morning. Although I was heading back home Monday night, we decided to take a drive north to a town called Dunedin (http://goo.gl/maps/vd8EA) to have lunch and perhaps do a little shopping. I wanted to get something to bring home to my girls.
As we were getting ready to walk back to the car, we decided to go by one more set of shops. We turned the corner and then I saw a shop; Enchanted Spirits Metaphysical Shop (http://www.enchantedspiritsshop.com/) Something inside of me just jumped! My heart beat with excitement. I said to my friend that we had to check it out! As soon as I stepped through the entrance, I saw the floor glittering. I squealed! What was that?! The woman behind the counter explained that it was Fairy dust. How cool was that?! And inside the shop in that first room, there were all kinds of Fairy themed nick knacks and Dream Catchers and candles and so on. This kind woman behind the counter explained the layout of the shop. This room was the gift shop and book store, the next room had jewelry and other fine artwork and the last room was where you could have a reading.
As a Catholic raised, Irish/Italian woman, this store should have been out of bounds. Just walking over the threshold was a "no-no." But what the heck?! Why not? It was all in good fun. So into the next room we walked. My friend by my side, quietly looking around, seemed equally intrigued. On the jewelry counter there was a carousel stand that held these chains with pointed stones. When I asked the woman working in the shop what they were, she explained that they were pendulums. And of course I asked what they were for. "Talking to your Spirit Guide, your Guardian Angel." I thought, "riiiiiiiiight." She then demonstrated how to use it. Holding the chain by the tips of her fingers of her right hand and letting the crystal hover just above the palm of her left hand, her right elbow on the counter and her left hand resting flat on the counter as well, she asked the pendulum to "tell" her "yes." The pendulum began to rotate counter-clockwise. She then asked the pendulum to "tell" her "no." The pendulum began to swing back and forth from wrist to index finger. My first reaction was disbelief! She HAD to be moving it herself. So, I asked if I could try.
Sure enough, the pendulum I chose behaved in the same manner. And my friend was doing the same. This woman began to explain that the pendulum was how you communicate with your Guide and that it's important to chose the right pendulum. "How do you do that?!" Well, you take the pendulum in your left hand, hold it over your heart, close your eyes.... I felt as though I was falling backwards! I looked at the floor and it seemed a little uneven. I laughed. She then gave me another pendulum to try and the same thing happened. Then she handed me another pendulum. This one had a purple crystal (aura-lite 23.) This time when I held it to my heart, I felt a strong push forward... "What the?!" This is how you know you have the right pendulum. From that moment on I had a "kung-fu" grip on it. Now it just so happened that I was wearing a purple outfit. I had on a light purple shirt that I had brought with me and a purple speckled skort that my friend's mother just gave me that morning. I thought it was a funny coincidence.
While I was holding the aura-lite 23 pendulum in my left hand, I walked a few feet into the last room of the shop and suddenly began to cry. I was crying and laughing at the same time. "Why am I crying?!" The woman in the shop told me she'd be right back. Next thing I know, there's this man walking in from somewhere in the shop. I hadn't seen him until now. He was a shaman. He asked if he could put his hands on my back and heart. "Okay..sure." I replied. He said, "You have a lot of pain in your neck and back, don't you?" I did in fact. And then he asked if he could do something for me. "Sure," I said. He then put his hand on my stomach and swiftly pulled it away. I felt an immediate sensation of something coming out of me. "What the heck was that?!" He calmly said that I had so much pain in my stomach, he could hardly stand it. He explained that he pulled some of the negative energy away. "Okay?...." I had a stomach ache for most of the day... like a knot in my gut... How did he know that?! I was just standing there as he walked away. I laughed a nervous kind of laugh. The whole time my friend was standing there. She wasn't saying anything. What just happened?
I just had to find out! I just had to get a "reading!" My friend said she didn't mind, (it was only going to be fifteen minutes after all.) So the woman went and got the shaman and he and I went into this small reading room. We sat a table and he had me cut a deck of taro cards. He started to talk about what he was seeing. My masculine and feminine sides were out of balance... I needed to "love" myself... And I began to talk about my father. I stood up to go, as it seemed our session was about to end. And then he says that my father was in the room. Excuse me?! And that my father wanted me to know that he loved me. Loved me unconditionally. My father was sorry that he made me think that his love was conditional. That unless I achieved something amazing, I wasn't worthy. At that moment, I felt such a huge relief. Although I was skeptical at the same time.
Then the shaman asked me to lay on a table that was in the room, something like what you see at doctor's office or a physically therapy office. He did some more "work" on me. And afterwards he had me sit up. Then he told me that my husband "really" loved me. "Truly and really" loved me. That made me feel awesome. And then I noticed the time. Forty-five minutes had gone by! We left the room and as we walked back into the first section of the store, the shaman told me to look in the mirror and to look at my eyes. My eyes seemed lighter! What the hey?! I continued to walk back to the front part of the store. My friend was sitting in a chair, waiting patiently near the shop's entrance.
I began to look around the shop some more. The shaman started talking to the woman behind the register and another lady about his "Spirit Guide" when he was a child. It was a fairy with an indigo aura. When he said that, I stopped. I said, "Did you just say, indigo?!" At that point I really wasn't making connections, but in that moment, it hit me. My eldest daughter had been talking about her favorite color, indigo, all Summer long. And she wanted to be an indigo fairy mermaid for Halloween. My head was spinning! It seemed as though I was meant to come here. Come to this very shop. So the debate of whether or not I was really going to buy the pendulum that I was having was decided, I just had to. So I did. And then we left the store.
In the car ride back to my friend's house in Tampa, we talked about what had just happened to me. My friend seemed so quiet during the whole time we were in the shop. I had been wondering what she thought about it. We had been friends since seventh grade and I had always thought she was an atheist. I was mistaken. She began to tell me that she totally believed what had just happened and that if I hadn't noticed, no one at the shop was really paying much attention to her. Perhaps they didn't because they could tell she was already aware. What a surprise! We talked about her sister-in-law who just went through stage four breast cancer treatment and how she was also exploring alternative healing. My friend mentioned that her sister-in-law was receiving Reiki treatments and was looking to practice Reiki. I had heard of Reiki, but I didn't know anything about it.
That night when I got on the plane to fly back home, I was so full of energy and wonder. I was trying to process what had happened. I was thinking about how I was going to tell my husband. Was he going to think I was a "nutcase?" My drive home from the airport was just as easy as the drive to the airport, even though it was midnight! And then I had to work in the morning. So I didn't have a chance to talk to my husband until that evening. I decided I would tell him everything. And to my pleasant surprise, he thought it was pretty cool. He wanted me to know that if this offered me some relief and happiness, then he was fine with it.
Over the next few days, I kept going over and over what happened. I began to research crystals and metaphysical sites and local shops. There are a few in the greater Boston area. I thought about going to one of these places to get more information in person. I told my husband that I was going to go to a shop that weekend. So the following Sunday morning, at the last minute, I discovered online a "psychic fair" going on at a shop in Andover (http://www.circlesofwisdom.com/) and decided I would go there. When I got there, I was so surprised at how many people were there. Everyone looking so "normal" and "regular." I was half expecting people to be dressed in flowing gowns like they were Wiccas or something...Not that I had a clue what a Wicca was.
They were having various services available; psychic readings, astrology charting and aura adjusting. I was drawn to the aura adjusting (by Sherryl Comeau http://energyworkstudio.com/?page_id=7). And it so happened that the next appointment open was at 3pm, about fifteen minutes after I arrived. My first impression about Sherryl was that she was so warm and inviting. We only talked briefly and she had me lay down on the table. She used tuning forks to make the adjustments, starting far away from my body and then progressively closer. She explained that the closer she worked, the more recent in time any potential issues were. Suddenly she asked me about a woman in my life. Was there someone I was having a hard time with? Now, as soon as I had walked into her treatment room, I couldn't get my mother out of my mind. I kept thinking that I didn't want to have her in my brain right now. My mother is a practicing Roman Catholic with a vary narrow view of anything that goes against the Church. I kept thinking that my mother would be so concerned about what I was doing. "Damn you Mom!" After Sherryl was finished, I felt lighter, relaxed and stress free.
I wanted more! So I signed up for the astrology reading. And while I waited for my next appointment, I walked around the shop. I was inspecting all the crystals and crystal jewelry. I happened to start talking with this very nice woman over some aura-lite 23 healing wands. She picked the three wands up. One of them "tinged." It "sang" unlike the other two. Yes, I heard it resonate differently... So I decided I'd buy it. And then she turned around and behind her was this lovely light blue crystal geode, a celestite crystal. She recommend I buy it as well. The price was amazing for the size and quality. (This woman was not an employee of the shop, just a customer there with a friend) If you say so.... Then I picked out two rose quartz pendant necklaces for my girls and an aura-lite 23 pendant and a citrine pendant for me. When I was called for my astrology reading, I wasn't sure what to expect. I sat down and gave Dorothy Morgan (http://www.nhastrologer.com/) my birth date/time information. In the next fifteen minutes, she went over my chart. It was SPOT on. How is that possible?! How can my birthday and time of birth reflect my personality? I still don't understand. I left the shop feeling as though I was now on a path. This wasn't something that was going to just fade away. And now I was paying attention.
Something else had happened that I didn't put together until after I had my aura adjusted. After I returned from Tampa, my oldest daughter had a bad dream. She was telling me about it when I suddenly remembered that I had a heart pendant necklace in my jewelry box that was given to me by my grandmother (my mother's mother.) I never knew my grandmother and I never really knew why I kept the necklace, until that moment. I went to my jewelry box and took out the necklace. I called to my daughter and told her that my grandmother gave this necklace to me and that if she kept it hanging above her head on her bed, if she had another bad dream, she could touch the necklace and know that not only does Mommy and Daddy love her, but that her Great Grandmother was loving her and protecting her. She was so excited! She just lit up! The necklace is still hanging on her bed.
Another weekend, just as a matter of chance once again, I found another person that I wanted to talk to. Laura at the Retreat on Elm in Manchester, NH. (http://www.infiniteconnectionenergies.com/Oracle-Readings-with-Laura.html) She just happened to be at the spa that afternoon and could see me. When I walked in, she asked to give me a hug. What a great way to say hello! We sat down at a small table in a side room and we began to talk. I explained everything that had happened to me since the Spring. She listened. Then she asked me about my sister (said her name) and that she was three, almost four years older? Yes. What the heck?! My sister doesn't have the same last name as me. Not even the same name we grew up with. She changed it years ago. That stunned me for sure. How did she know that?! We talked about what was important to me. Some things that hit home. I'm a healer. I should think about that. Also, I needed to meditate on these words; "I forgive myself. I forgive others who may have hurt me. I live in the now, in the present. And thank you Lord/Universe for all that is my life." Another thing that seemed interesting to me, she suggested that I stop trying to fix everything and everyone and just focus on taking care of me. That's a tough one. And again, the time flew. Ninety minutes later, I was saying thanks and good bye. She urged me to make an appointment with April at the Retreat. April was the owner. I said that I would. That night I started my meditation (before bedtime) routine. I sat on a pillow with my calm meditation music playing from Pandora with my aura-lite 23 pendulum, my aura-lite wand and a white tea candle lit.
Later the following week, after more research, I came across a site for Reiki lessons from Libby Barnett. (http://www.reikienergy.com/about-Usui-Reiki-Master-Teacher-Libby-Barnett.php) She just so happened to have a Reiki I class with an opening for December 7th at her house, twenty minutes away from my house! I was able to arrange for my mother-in-law to baby sit while I attended class and my husband worked. (two things here, my husband never works on the weekend and my mother-in-law just so happened to be home to take my call AND be willing to drive to our house in the morning, impending winter storm and all. She does not drive in "weather." I confidently told her that the storm would be over by the time she got on the road and that it would just fine. Which it was.) Libby's home was wonderful. The people that were in this class all seemed "normal and regular" once again. I felt excited and calm at the same time. The day passed as I was introduced to Reiki and received my attunements. There were connections between myself and the other students that are hard to explain, but we were all there together and sharing this wonderful healing energy. At the end of the day I received my Reiki I certificate. When I got home, the first thing my daughter wanted from me was a Reiki session. She's four. She's four and I really didn't say what I was doing that day, but somehow she knew. Every night at bedtime, we (myself, husband and two girls) practice "self-Reiki."
I have incorporated self-Reiki into my meditation every night.
And now for the last bit of history before we come to present day. I had my visit with April last weekend. (http://www.infiniteconnectionenergies.com/Reiki-and-Coaching-w-April.html) She let me talk and talk about everything I've just written about. I talked about my mother a lot. Some about my father. And about how my trauma of miscarriages was the likely source of my "activation." Activation in terms of becoming "aware." She received affirmations about all that I had said. And in turn, I received the sense that I finally found someone who could really guide me through this journey. We talked for almost two hours. I plan on seeing her again to explore my intuitive abilities. I'm thrilled, but exhausted.
These weeks have left me nearly breathless. I plan on letting the events sink in and then after the Holidays, get back to it. I also plan on taking the Reiki II course offered by Libby in March. And as a side note, I have continued to see the therapist. She thinks that what I have experienced is amazing. She told me that she would not have brought up the metaphysical approach unless a client mentioned it, but that she was completely supportive. She feels that this is all meant to be. I completely agree.
-Hello, my name is Monica. I'm a forty-something, full-time working, mother of two young girls and wife.
What is this blog about?
-As I mentioned, I have started on a path of discovery in the metaphysical realm. I hope to share my experiences, stories and thoughts as they pertain to this journey.
What brought me to this?
-In the Spring of 2013, I discovered I was pregnant. Soon after, I miscarried. And then shortly after that, I was pregnant once again. Only to miscarry again. Both of these miscarriages were stressful, painful and left me grieving in a way I never experienced before. I thought I had enough life experience to handle this trauma, but as it turned out, I didn't.
I suffered internally, externally, in my place of work and at home. My marriage was strained and my two young children didn't know why their mother was not herself. When I finally acknowledged that I needed help, I decided to see a therapist, someone who could help me deal with my loss and suffering. It was a relief to learn that I was handling my sorrow with strength and wisdom, but I was still struggling with the sadness.
Then I got an email from a friend. She wanted me to visit her in Tampa, FL. So I booked a flight in October. The morning I got into my car to drive to the airport, I could feel that something was different. Something unexpected and energizing was going to happen. My drive into Boston was quick and easy for a Friday morning. I was able to find a parking space directly next to the terminal. (I mean, you physically could not park any closer, period.) After I breezed through security and found my way to the gate, I noticed that there was a direct flight to Tampa nearly ready to depart. I walked up to the ticket agent and asked if I could get on that flight. Sure enough, there were three seats left. He changed my ticket and I headed to the other gate. By taking this earlier flight, I was going to land in Tampa four hours ahead of schedule. I called my girlfriend to let her know, but I only got her voice mail. Regardless, I still boarded the plane and hoped that she would get my message and be able to pick me up from the airport. When I had landed and was able to turn my phone back on, I saw I had a message. My friend was thrilled that I made an earlier flight and she'd pick me up straight away.
The next few days were fun and relaxing. Although I'd never been away from my children, I was calm and happy. Seeing my friend and enjoying the warmth of Florida was a recharge to my soul. I was enjoying my mini-vacation/get-a-way. My girlfriend's parents also live in the area and have a house right on the beach. My friend and I stayed there Sunday night and Monday morning. Although I was heading back home Monday night, we decided to take a drive north to a town called Dunedin (http://goo.gl/maps/vd8EA) to have lunch and perhaps do a little shopping. I wanted to get something to bring home to my girls.
As we were getting ready to walk back to the car, we decided to go by one more set of shops. We turned the corner and then I saw a shop; Enchanted Spirits Metaphysical Shop (http://www.enchantedspiritsshop.com/) Something inside of me just jumped! My heart beat with excitement. I said to my friend that we had to check it out! As soon as I stepped through the entrance, I saw the floor glittering. I squealed! What was that?! The woman behind the counter explained that it was Fairy dust. How cool was that?! And inside the shop in that first room, there were all kinds of Fairy themed nick knacks and Dream Catchers and candles and so on. This kind woman behind the counter explained the layout of the shop. This room was the gift shop and book store, the next room had jewelry and other fine artwork and the last room was where you could have a reading.
As a Catholic raised, Irish/Italian woman, this store should have been out of bounds. Just walking over the threshold was a "no-no." But what the heck?! Why not? It was all in good fun. So into the next room we walked. My friend by my side, quietly looking around, seemed equally intrigued. On the jewelry counter there was a carousel stand that held these chains with pointed stones. When I asked the woman working in the shop what they were, she explained that they were pendulums. And of course I asked what they were for. "Talking to your Spirit Guide, your Guardian Angel." I thought, "riiiiiiiiight." She then demonstrated how to use it. Holding the chain by the tips of her fingers of her right hand and letting the crystal hover just above the palm of her left hand, her right elbow on the counter and her left hand resting flat on the counter as well, she asked the pendulum to "tell" her "yes." The pendulum began to rotate counter-clockwise. She then asked the pendulum to "tell" her "no." The pendulum began to swing back and forth from wrist to index finger. My first reaction was disbelief! She HAD to be moving it herself. So, I asked if I could try.
Sure enough, the pendulum I chose behaved in the same manner. And my friend was doing the same. This woman began to explain that the pendulum was how you communicate with your Guide and that it's important to chose the right pendulum. "How do you do that?!" Well, you take the pendulum in your left hand, hold it over your heart, close your eyes.... I felt as though I was falling backwards! I looked at the floor and it seemed a little uneven. I laughed. She then gave me another pendulum to try and the same thing happened. Then she handed me another pendulum. This one had a purple crystal (aura-lite 23.) This time when I held it to my heart, I felt a strong push forward... "What the?!" This is how you know you have the right pendulum. From that moment on I had a "kung-fu" grip on it. Now it just so happened that I was wearing a purple outfit. I had on a light purple shirt that I had brought with me and a purple speckled skort that my friend's mother just gave me that morning. I thought it was a funny coincidence.
While I was holding the aura-lite 23 pendulum in my left hand, I walked a few feet into the last room of the shop and suddenly began to cry. I was crying and laughing at the same time. "Why am I crying?!" The woman in the shop told me she'd be right back. Next thing I know, there's this man walking in from somewhere in the shop. I hadn't seen him until now. He was a shaman. He asked if he could put his hands on my back and heart. "Okay..sure." I replied. He said, "You have a lot of pain in your neck and back, don't you?" I did in fact. And then he asked if he could do something for me. "Sure," I said. He then put his hand on my stomach and swiftly pulled it away. I felt an immediate sensation of something coming out of me. "What the heck was that?!" He calmly said that I had so much pain in my stomach, he could hardly stand it. He explained that he pulled some of the negative energy away. "Okay?...." I had a stomach ache for most of the day... like a knot in my gut... How did he know that?! I was just standing there as he walked away. I laughed a nervous kind of laugh. The whole time my friend was standing there. She wasn't saying anything. What just happened?
I just had to find out! I just had to get a "reading!" My friend said she didn't mind, (it was only going to be fifteen minutes after all.) So the woman went and got the shaman and he and I went into this small reading room. We sat a table and he had me cut a deck of taro cards. He started to talk about what he was seeing. My masculine and feminine sides were out of balance... I needed to "love" myself... And I began to talk about my father. I stood up to go, as it seemed our session was about to end. And then he says that my father was in the room. Excuse me?! And that my father wanted me to know that he loved me. Loved me unconditionally. My father was sorry that he made me think that his love was conditional. That unless I achieved something amazing, I wasn't worthy. At that moment, I felt such a huge relief. Although I was skeptical at the same time.
Then the shaman asked me to lay on a table that was in the room, something like what you see at doctor's office or a physically therapy office. He did some more "work" on me. And afterwards he had me sit up. Then he told me that my husband "really" loved me. "Truly and really" loved me. That made me feel awesome. And then I noticed the time. Forty-five minutes had gone by! We left the room and as we walked back into the first section of the store, the shaman told me to look in the mirror and to look at my eyes. My eyes seemed lighter! What the hey?! I continued to walk back to the front part of the store. My friend was sitting in a chair, waiting patiently near the shop's entrance.
I began to look around the shop some more. The shaman started talking to the woman behind the register and another lady about his "Spirit Guide" when he was a child. It was a fairy with an indigo aura. When he said that, I stopped. I said, "Did you just say, indigo?!" At that point I really wasn't making connections, but in that moment, it hit me. My eldest daughter had been talking about her favorite color, indigo, all Summer long. And she wanted to be an indigo fairy mermaid for Halloween. My head was spinning! It seemed as though I was meant to come here. Come to this very shop. So the debate of whether or not I was really going to buy the pendulum that I was having was decided, I just had to. So I did. And then we left the store.
In the car ride back to my friend's house in Tampa, we talked about what had just happened to me. My friend seemed so quiet during the whole time we were in the shop. I had been wondering what she thought about it. We had been friends since seventh grade and I had always thought she was an atheist. I was mistaken. She began to tell me that she totally believed what had just happened and that if I hadn't noticed, no one at the shop was really paying much attention to her. Perhaps they didn't because they could tell she was already aware. What a surprise! We talked about her sister-in-law who just went through stage four breast cancer treatment and how she was also exploring alternative healing. My friend mentioned that her sister-in-law was receiving Reiki treatments and was looking to practice Reiki. I had heard of Reiki, but I didn't know anything about it.
That night when I got on the plane to fly back home, I was so full of energy and wonder. I was trying to process what had happened. I was thinking about how I was going to tell my husband. Was he going to think I was a "nutcase?" My drive home from the airport was just as easy as the drive to the airport, even though it was midnight! And then I had to work in the morning. So I didn't have a chance to talk to my husband until that evening. I decided I would tell him everything. And to my pleasant surprise, he thought it was pretty cool. He wanted me to know that if this offered me some relief and happiness, then he was fine with it.
Over the next few days, I kept going over and over what happened. I began to research crystals and metaphysical sites and local shops. There are a few in the greater Boston area. I thought about going to one of these places to get more information in person. I told my husband that I was going to go to a shop that weekend. So the following Sunday morning, at the last minute, I discovered online a "psychic fair" going on at a shop in Andover (http://www.circlesofwisdom.com/) and decided I would go there. When I got there, I was so surprised at how many people were there. Everyone looking so "normal" and "regular." I was half expecting people to be dressed in flowing gowns like they were Wiccas or something...Not that I had a clue what a Wicca was.
They were having various services available; psychic readings, astrology charting and aura adjusting. I was drawn to the aura adjusting (by Sherryl Comeau http://energyworkstudio.com/?page_id=7). And it so happened that the next appointment open was at 3pm, about fifteen minutes after I arrived. My first impression about Sherryl was that she was so warm and inviting. We only talked briefly and she had me lay down on the table. She used tuning forks to make the adjustments, starting far away from my body and then progressively closer. She explained that the closer she worked, the more recent in time any potential issues were. Suddenly she asked me about a woman in my life. Was there someone I was having a hard time with? Now, as soon as I had walked into her treatment room, I couldn't get my mother out of my mind. I kept thinking that I didn't want to have her in my brain right now. My mother is a practicing Roman Catholic with a vary narrow view of anything that goes against the Church. I kept thinking that my mother would be so concerned about what I was doing. "Damn you Mom!" After Sherryl was finished, I felt lighter, relaxed and stress free.
I wanted more! So I signed up for the astrology reading. And while I waited for my next appointment, I walked around the shop. I was inspecting all the crystals and crystal jewelry. I happened to start talking with this very nice woman over some aura-lite 23 healing wands. She picked the three wands up. One of them "tinged." It "sang" unlike the other two. Yes, I heard it resonate differently... So I decided I'd buy it. And then she turned around and behind her was this lovely light blue crystal geode, a celestite crystal. She recommend I buy it as well. The price was amazing for the size and quality. (This woman was not an employee of the shop, just a customer there with a friend) If you say so.... Then I picked out two rose quartz pendant necklaces for my girls and an aura-lite 23 pendant and a citrine pendant for me. When I was called for my astrology reading, I wasn't sure what to expect. I sat down and gave Dorothy Morgan (http://www.nhastrologer.com/) my birth date/time information. In the next fifteen minutes, she went over my chart. It was SPOT on. How is that possible?! How can my birthday and time of birth reflect my personality? I still don't understand. I left the shop feeling as though I was now on a path. This wasn't something that was going to just fade away. And now I was paying attention.
Something else had happened that I didn't put together until after I had my aura adjusted. After I returned from Tampa, my oldest daughter had a bad dream. She was telling me about it when I suddenly remembered that I had a heart pendant necklace in my jewelry box that was given to me by my grandmother (my mother's mother.) I never knew my grandmother and I never really knew why I kept the necklace, until that moment. I went to my jewelry box and took out the necklace. I called to my daughter and told her that my grandmother gave this necklace to me and that if she kept it hanging above her head on her bed, if she had another bad dream, she could touch the necklace and know that not only does Mommy and Daddy love her, but that her Great Grandmother was loving her and protecting her. She was so excited! She just lit up! The necklace is still hanging on her bed.
Another weekend, just as a matter of chance once again, I found another person that I wanted to talk to. Laura at the Retreat on Elm in Manchester, NH. (http://www.infiniteconnectionenergies.com/Oracle-Readings-with-Laura.html) She just happened to be at the spa that afternoon and could see me. When I walked in, she asked to give me a hug. What a great way to say hello! We sat down at a small table in a side room and we began to talk. I explained everything that had happened to me since the Spring. She listened. Then she asked me about my sister (said her name) and that she was three, almost four years older? Yes. What the heck?! My sister doesn't have the same last name as me. Not even the same name we grew up with. She changed it years ago. That stunned me for sure. How did she know that?! We talked about what was important to me. Some things that hit home. I'm a healer. I should think about that. Also, I needed to meditate on these words; "I forgive myself. I forgive others who may have hurt me. I live in the now, in the present. And thank you Lord/Universe for all that is my life." Another thing that seemed interesting to me, she suggested that I stop trying to fix everything and everyone and just focus on taking care of me. That's a tough one. And again, the time flew. Ninety minutes later, I was saying thanks and good bye. She urged me to make an appointment with April at the Retreat. April was the owner. I said that I would. That night I started my meditation (before bedtime) routine. I sat on a pillow with my calm meditation music playing from Pandora with my aura-lite 23 pendulum, my aura-lite wand and a white tea candle lit.
Later the following week, after more research, I came across a site for Reiki lessons from Libby Barnett. (http://www.reikienergy.com/about-Usui-Reiki-Master-Teacher-Libby-Barnett.php) She just so happened to have a Reiki I class with an opening for December 7th at her house, twenty minutes away from my house! I was able to arrange for my mother-in-law to baby sit while I attended class and my husband worked. (two things here, my husband never works on the weekend and my mother-in-law just so happened to be home to take my call AND be willing to drive to our house in the morning, impending winter storm and all. She does not drive in "weather." I confidently told her that the storm would be over by the time she got on the road and that it would just fine. Which it was.) Libby's home was wonderful. The people that were in this class all seemed "normal and regular" once again. I felt excited and calm at the same time. The day passed as I was introduced to Reiki and received my attunements. There were connections between myself and the other students that are hard to explain, but we were all there together and sharing this wonderful healing energy. At the end of the day I received my Reiki I certificate. When I got home, the first thing my daughter wanted from me was a Reiki session. She's four. She's four and I really didn't say what I was doing that day, but somehow she knew. Every night at bedtime, we (myself, husband and two girls) practice "self-Reiki."
I have incorporated self-Reiki into my meditation every night.
And now for the last bit of history before we come to present day. I had my visit with April last weekend. (http://www.infiniteconnectionenergies.com/Reiki-and-Coaching-w-April.html) She let me talk and talk about everything I've just written about. I talked about my mother a lot. Some about my father. And about how my trauma of miscarriages was the likely source of my "activation." Activation in terms of becoming "aware." She received affirmations about all that I had said. And in turn, I received the sense that I finally found someone who could really guide me through this journey. We talked for almost two hours. I plan on seeing her again to explore my intuitive abilities. I'm thrilled, but exhausted.
These weeks have left me nearly breathless. I plan on letting the events sink in and then after the Holidays, get back to it. I also plan on taking the Reiki II course offered by Libby in March. And as a side note, I have continued to see the therapist. She thinks that what I have experienced is amazing. She told me that she would not have brought up the metaphysical approach unless a client mentioned it, but that she was completely supportive. She feels that this is all meant to be. I completely agree.
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